When one of the best thing that can happen at a business happens, it's exciting and overwhelming. The best thing is that you have a healthy, thriving, OPEN after five years. With success comes much responsibility and there are days when I wish I were just a manager again. Back in those days I didn't have to think so much about the future because that was somebody else's job and I just followed orders. Now, I have to and get to (it's bitter-sweet ) make these huge decisions. Like whether or not we are going to be open on Black Friday or New Years Day? I can no longer be the innocent one saying, "it's not up to me, it's up to the big boss." HAHA! It is up to me!
There's a fine balance between two things right now. Making sure that the salon can stay healthy emotionally as well as financially. So many businesses choose one or the other. Closing the salon for two days in a row for celebrations equals a loss of a substantial amount of revenue and that puts us in an unhealthy spot financially. We are still a growing salon and when we opened in our new location two years ago, it was like starting over. Budgeting is at the top of our priority list because it's what makes our finances make sense and helps us see clearly into our future. If our finances are a big priority right now, then it takes a lot of clear communication to our team why we are choosing to be open certain days. I try my hardest to think every decision through for the better of everyone and try my hardest to communicate why I do what I do. Thinking about these things is what makes me lose motivation to clean, make a dinner, and don't even ask me if we are ready for another child. (the answer to that last one is...NO)
Although, I've lost motivation in some areas, I step back and see the big picture. There's no other choice than to see the big picture right now. Yes, my house could use a maid but it's by no means a disaster, it's just not as clean as my mom keeps hers. My dinners are mediocre at best but we have food in our cupboards and my husband is totally fine with a can of soup or he makes us a nice meal. Our friends may have plans to start on their second baby and all I can say is, "my life is not their life". God has given me a different desire and that is to see our business and team succeed. I look forward to their future just as much as I look forward to Rhylan's future. It seems strange and uncommon but it's where God wants me right now and I know that in my heart. When it comes down to it, my priorities are different for now. They are different than my friends' priorities and sometimes it makes me feel so different and set apart.
My motivation isn't a formula, it's a daily process of taking my top priortities and working my way down. I try to take each day on it's own and try not to define it as a good day or bad day. Each day is like a person, if you define a person by one thing that they do or even five things, then you start thinking of that person as what they do. I will not define one day by it's circumstance. There will always be obstacles, especially if the reward is BIG! I keep open communication with my husband about how I'm feeling and we do our best to work through each day. Lately, there aren't any easy days but there are moments of accomplishment and feelings of relief. That's worth a lot! Reminiscing the past when I could go to the pool at any moment or even go workout for an hour won't do me any good. I put them on my priority list, even if they are close to the bottom, I make sure they are there. There are some days that I know those things are on the top of the list because that's just the way it is. I need a break, I need to enjoy nature. Even though I may not have the privilege of spontaneity like I use to, I can still have a date with my husband, I can still schedule a time to sleep in, I can still plan a walk to the park with Rhylan. Just because my priorities have changed doesn't mean that I lose everything, it just means that I have to be more intentional with my mind, heart, and body and most of all recognize the blessings.
Motivation comes from:
- Knowing that I can choose what food I eat (I am blessed that I have a fridge full of options)
- Hearing that people in Syria can't leave their homes without living in fear of death (I am blessed to be able to leave my driveway, walk into work and live without the fear of being bombed. Freedom in the USA is unimaginable to those people, I can't take it for granted)
- Knowing that I can choose what church I go to (I am blessed to be able to carry a Bible in public and tell people about what a great church I go to every week without worrying about being prosecuted)
- Having both my parents and both of Scott's parents as support (We are blessed that they love us and support us so much)
- Having this beautiful acreage and home (this is far more space to live in than I deserve)
- Having health insurance (it is not my God-given right to have someone insure my health)
- Having healthy family members (Life is so fragile, I know this first hand after almost losing my dad five years ago)
- Having a job (so many are struggling and are working holidays for a poor wage)
- Having a beautiful baby girl (I can't imagine life without her)
- My husband is constantly trying to improve our life (Marriage doesn't guarantee happiness but it has made me a better person and a stronger believer in my faith)
- Knowing God is in control of my future and therefore the decisions I make regarding the business are prayerfully made with a humble heart
- Knowing that I am not defined by just one thing, my identity is not in the things of this earth
- Having a bed (there is an enormous population of the USA that don't have beds)
- Knowing I am blessed beyond what I deserve.
- Knowing that my future doesn't depend on how clean my house is, or how many good deeds I do (my future is in my faith in Jesus as my Savior. He doesn't have a weigh scale of my bad and good. He gave his life for my freedom. There's some motivation!!!)
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